Welcome, welcome

It's been a long time.

While this may be obvious, I have only just come to realise truly and in fullness how difficult it is to run from something that you naturally gravitate toward. In this case, it's pretty simple, fun and "easy": maintaining a blog. I've gone through my share of blogs here on Blogger. They accompanied me throughout my adolescent years as places to write. That's what it was at the core. A place to write.

For a very long time I literally blogged pretty much every single day with my school timetable stuck up in front of me on my wall. I would go through each subject I had that day (sometimes including recess and lunch if there was anything of interest) and talk about what we did and how it was. Small anecdotes, jokes, rants, all laid out each day in a neat little blog post. That diligence and dedication surprises me so much now, several years on. I grew out of blogging because I got busy with life and learning real, literally life-changing things. I grew out of it in an instinctual way where I felt it was simply time to close it down and move on with other things.

The funny thing is, not too long after that I was absolutely itching to start up a new blog but that soon failed with my final year of high school as well as a loss of the aforementioned dedication I had to post so frequently. Also I found I simply over-thought it. The more I wanted to post, the less I could write. I was essentially muttering 'no' to myself inanely every time I tried to write something.

This trend seems to have bled into other parts of my thinking and patterns of work. Too much of anything isn't good for you, we all know that. I feel that's what's happened with so many areas of my life. I'm really stripping it back. Inspiration is important but so is instinct. I'm really excited to write again. I'm scared, but I'm also tired of putting things off and saying 'No'. I'm tired of being lazy. It makes no sense to ignore and consistently push away something like blogging which is so simple but such a cathartic thing for my overactive little brain.

I can't remember the last time I was really buzzing like this about something. I've made so many life changes in a very, very short time span and I'm really hoping I'll stick to all of it and stick to this. I'm saying 'Yes!' with my arms thrown in the air* and an overwhelming bubbling pot of ideas and creativity.


*Like I just don't care. But I do! I really do.