Things We've Felt

The power of thoughts and the vast expanse that the mind really is kind of terrifies me. It's wonderful, don't get me wrong. But you have to admit, emotions and their paradoxical tangibility are pretty weird.

In no way am I doubting your intelligence, dear reader, but I am also very conscious of roundabout terms that may just mean nothing so I want to explain what I mean by 'paradoxical tangibility.' Essentially, I'm talking about how you wouldn't expect something such as emotions, that happen in the realms of your brain to be so palpable. Such as when you feel so angry you want to punch something, or when you feel so sad you cry. The intangible, arguably ephemeral emotions that translate so well into physical things. Thus it's a paradox because even though at its inception, the emotions are in no way physical 'real' things at all but they hold so much potential in becoming tangible and actions etc. There may well be proper scientific terms for this but I have no clue what they are. 

Sometimes I feel things so big and messy and consuming that I have to go and do something completely exhausting like run or something really rhythmic and prolonged like walk for kilometres on end. For the broader thoughts that aren't so aggressive, I do yoga until my body is settled again. I feel as if my thoughts and emotions surge through my veins. I wonder why God wired my body so dramatically. The complexity is somewhat nice but the high-strung nature of it all is pretty exhausting and very consuming. 

It's not at all impossible or painful to get through though most of the time. The activities I mentioned earlier are generally extremely effective. It just interests me that something like that chemically happens in the first place.

I thought to write about this because I just wanted to sort through some thoughts and feelings of late. The personal details of that will be saved for my journal, however. Maybe it's just the fact that I'm a relatively private person when it comes to certain things, but I've just always disliked over sharing, especially on the internet. It's not that there's a lack of trust in the people reading it, but more of a natural tendency for things to be misinterpreted, read out of context, blown out of proportion etc. when more personal things are broadcast on the scary ol' webz.